Thank you for this…I still have brief conversations with Jesus even though I left behind the belief in the larger story that surrounds him decades ago. I also bounce things off my dad who has been gone now 9 years. I aspire to be my mother who quite literally does not judge and her father who loved his grandchildren unconditionally. I wonder about who shapes me the most, even this far into my life, and some days if I were straight up honest, I would have to say Jesus. But not the Jesus of my believing friends. Not the Jesus they would assume if I confessed it. The Jesus I left all things Christian for back in my twenties to try and find. Sometimes it seems a little crazy to still think about Jesus as representing a moral center or conscience, so really, thank you for this.